I'm a Survivor

Well I have found a few moments to escape the black hole that has been my life lately. I officially survived my first few days as a teacher. I sweat surprisingly less than I thought I would and there were fewer butterflies than expected, but nothing could stop the occasional moments when "how am I going to do this?!?" ran through my head. From what I can tell I have great kids, but the loss of my summer has caused me to grieve (please don't judge). I think more than anything else I feel like I'm walking on a tight rope. I have every tool to succeed, I get a thrill out of doing something I've always wanted to do, but the balancing act of being a new teacher in an established system causes me to take quite a few deep breaths throughout the day. Each day is a step of experience, still I anxiously look forward to making it to the end of the year and triumphantly saying "I made it!" Honestly, what has gotten me through the week besides an awesome husband and a few phone calls to my parents is the reality that my role as a teacher is far greater than my lessons or classroom management. God has gifted me in an incredible way and in my weakness His power is made perfect. I have clung to God in so many ways over this past week and I have overcome fears, felt peace, put one foot in front of the other, and done other things that I could not have done without a belief that God is an intricate God who is weaving the details of this season of my life into an incredible experience; one that will reveal some of the most amazing things about God to me and to those who I have the privilege (something obligation) of interacting with. So with that, I'm not entirely sure how this week will go, I still feel a little worn out from last week, but life is good.

Now for some pictures of my room.